A New Begining

Ok, this is a new begining for me. A way to really get a kick start into this new life of mine. Now this new life that I speak of is through Jesus Christ. Now I've know of (Him) since my teenage years, but never really fully understood. I attended church and the occasional young gathering they had back than. There was a different Pastor attending our church at the time an older gentlemen. The church that I attended started out being a Baptist church an now it's a christian church. Still a little puzzled about the differences between the 2, but thats ok, God will help me understand. Once I graduated an went out on my own I basically stopped going to church except on holidays ( Christmas eve day, an Easter). Now why I stopped going is kinda hard and personal to describe to much detail, but it was mainly I didn't believe in Christ enough to stay. Than there was the music, movies, ADnD games (Advanced Dungeons an Dragons) which I pretty much became obessed with. Now also add in alcohol, drugs, adultery with my best friends girlfriend, ect. You get the idea. Now the games, music, porno, alcohol, drugs, lies, ect. Continued on well into my 30's. The one thing that I stopped going was the adultry with my beat friends girlfriend which became his wife. That ended when I met my wife now. There was something about her that was different from all the others thatI had supposedly dated (mainly for sex). Now I know why. She was god sent to me in order to bring me back to the Savior. I didn't realize this at first it actually took me awhile, but she became my anchor who was there no matter what, always supportive, an when I needed it she was there to put a foot up my butt. Now most people have always asked why would she put up with me and some of thing that I was doing. They didn't understand the commitment she had to work through all that an safe our relationship. Now lets get something straight. I was never the type to hit or put her down in anyway. What I put her through was more emotional than anything. I know that is just as bad. I wasn't always this bad to her. Looking back on it really started getting after I came home from the military. There have been a few times when she's threatened to me or throw me out. Mainly over the stupid decisions I was making. I can't blame anyone but myself. These are the kinda of things that can happen when your not with God an (He) lets you figure things out on your own. Now, like most, I would usally get the hint an startin for a little while get back on track before going right back to the things that got me trouble with her in the first place. The only I would learn from all that was not to make so obvious next time. Which didn't help just made things worse. It wasn't until she had had enough in summer of 06' that I finally realized how bad I had become. I realized this when I was told that either I had to change my ways or I was looking at a divorce. That hurt. So in order to keep her in my life I decided it was time to get back in touch with some old friends I had forgotten at my church. I started receiving counciling from an elder I had know, Starting going back to church, learning how to be humble by repenting, an reading in the bible. Now none of this was easy for me an I still struggling with some things here an there, But praise God through his people an my wife I'm walking the road of righteousness from now on. More to follow...........